bongo282's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus So I acted all cool when he (co-flirt) showed up at work tonight to do his other job, cleaning. I said hi and just kept taking phone calls like he was not even there. It worked because he asked me to take my break then. I was going to take it in 10 min anyway so I went early. He asked how I was doing and I said great and how are you feeling because I have not seen you since last Tues. night, he told me he was so sick. I joked around with him and said you just don't like to work with me anymore. He laughed and said your kidding right? I said kind of but not really and last Tues. he was acting really weird. He told me he was not feeling good then that's why. Ok so now do I trust that he is not lying to me? I have to beause at the end of our conversation and he was getting ready to leave he reached to hug me and he has never done that before. Men (and u know who u are) are the most confusing animals ever. I guess that's why there is a book out there called Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. I know in my heart I have some kind of feelings for him but I can't show too much, and so it makes it really hard to express what I feel because I can't be honest with him and with myself. It would hurt too many people. So dreaming and only dreaming of having sex with him will have to do. Why the hell on earth did I get married again? I have been asking myself that ?? a lot lately. I love my husband don't get me wrong but sometimes I ?? that and think that I don't deserve him because I am thinking this way. I have been told by some people it is normal to feel that way sometimes. Oh well, we deal with life the only way we know how.
5:06 a.m. - 2007-03-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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