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8:06 p.m. - 2003-06-30 I am starting to feel this way myself. I feel nothing I do is good enough for anyone. Everything I say is shit. But I am good for the fuck!!! Anyway I'll stop feeling sorry for myself now. I just get soo pissed off with people. Not anyone person in general, just everybody. The whole entire world just needs to smoke a joint and chill the fuck out!!! I don't mean to be all pissy but it's just been that type of day. The things I can look forward to this week: 1) Pxxx from work is out this week on vacation and 2) it a short week because of 4th of July. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve the things that I have. My husband, my cats, my house and everthing in it. I guess because my Mom will always be pissed off at me and him (most of all him because he took mommys little girl away) because we moved 500+ miles away, I will always feel guilty. I needed to leave Ma. I just could not take running into my ex. I know that not everyone has a fariytale life I was just hoping for a normal life but, not going to happen because of me, and HOW I FEEL . I am going to go now and try not to be pissed off anymore. I guess!!!
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